A night at the cinema…

I don’t know wether it’s due to my heart being a gentle soul or the fact that I’m a girl and we have a lot of hormones…or it could be just down to the genes I’m made up from. But for me going to the cinema or the theatre is a rollercoaster…when it comes to emotions at least.

Depending on what film or performance you go to see, you can experience love, passion, anger, fear, amusement, and of course sadness…all within the space of a couple of hours! When you think about it, all of them emotions you have just experienced is a bit like the emotions you could feel over a two year relationship…which in my opinion is pretty impressive to say the least. The ability to manipulate your feelings, to apply it to the current situations of the main character. Not to mention you could do it all over again the following day or even the following week. Learning a new story everytime, through observing other’s lives (well, acted out lives). Experiencing all of that through emotions, basically without the actual impact of drama of it all.

It’s all pretty incredible…but of course if we only ever lived through films and performances, then we’d never really allow ourselves the chance to actually live. Which you know, is what life is really about. Living, experiencing, feeling. Let’s be honest though…It’s perfect if you need an escape for a hour or two.

Advertisements

Me before you…

I’m a sucker for a love story. As soon as I saw the trailer for this film, I was hooked. I knew I had to see it…and today was that day. As someone who is in love with love stories you have to get your priorities in order. Now the first thing you have to work out is if its going to be upsetting in parts. If it is, you need to choose your company wisely. After all you do NOT want to go with someone who has never seen you cry before. This means this is defiantly not a film for first dates…unless of course they are ‘into’ sweaty, blotchy, crying women…in which case run away before you guarantee a second date they may be a bit too weird. So grab any of your girlfriends, get to the cinema, and be ready to fall in love, have your heartbroken and feel the need to live your life fuller than ever…all in the space of an hour and fifty.

If there’s anything that this film gives to you, it’s courage. Courage to live your life, fall in love again, explore the world, and most importantly take chances…or at least that’s what I got from it. Everything about this film for me was perfect from the story line to the director and especially the actors, it was just perfect. The performances given by Emilia Clarke and Sam Claflin were amazing! The belief and passion in their eyes for each other was remarkable, even that was enough to make anyone believe in the story. Maybe even a little bit too much…now the only thing the women who have watched this film need is for it to happen in real life.

What I miss…

Like most university students I moved away from home. This was after I stayed at home and travelled for the first year, and then decided it wasn’t for me. But for the two years that I lived in Sheffield, I honestly loved it. I loved having my own space, with my own freedom to do whatever I wanted no matter what time it was. I mean don’t get me wrong, I did miss seeing my family everyday…but I had so much more independence. I can even say I enjoyed being able to do my own washing…how weird is that?

I even fell in love with Sheffield itself. It had so much to offer than my hometown. Better jobs, better atmosphere, better theatres, everything. In a way because I’ve returned home now, I yearn for this freedom I had never experienced before going to university. I’d love to move out again no matter where I moved to…but it’s a bit hard when you’re attempting to save for other things like travelling, not to mention having to fix a broken car. In some ways I feel like my life’s on hold a bit…but sacrifices must be made I guess.

What are you excited about?

Right now in all honesty I’m not really excited for anything…I could say travelling next year but right now, money wise, I don’t even really know if I’m going to be able to afford it. The only thing I can really guess at, is that I’m excited for the future in some way. This could be more of a nervous excitement though, because I don’t really know where I’ll end up, or what I’ll be doing. People sometimes ask “Where do you think you’ll be in 5 years time?” And I never know what to say. I don’t really know where I’ll be. My life’s a bit up in the air…The future always changes. Nothing’s ever really set in stone. So right now I’m just excited to see what’s round the corner…hopefully something good.

“I guess you could say not everything’s ‘plane’ sailing… ;)”

The struggle…

I’ve written about this before, but Depression is something I’ve struggled with in the past. It effects many people all over the world, and most of us keep it hidden due to the stigma that is attached to it. For me depression is a weird one because it comes back out of the blue with no real warning, and no definite way to send it away again. I think I’m always going to struggle with it in one way or another and that’s just something I’ve grown to accept. What helps though is having people around to help and talk to about it. I know for some people it’s hard to understand but it’s a topic that’s very confusing and unless you’ve experienced it or even seen it first hand…you can’t really compare. Like I said though its different for everyone, but if you know someone with depression the only thing you can do is be there for them…that’s all.

To die in a dream…

A few nights ago…I had a dream.

Now unlike majority of my dreams, this one had a historical background… It was set in Nazi Germany. Now, I love history but the bad thing about this, was that I was a Jew.

The dream began underground, in a similar setting to the London Underground except it was darker and unkept. I was surrounded by loads of other Jews, all of different ages showing a range of emotions. We began being led to what seemed to be two elevator shafts in which groups of Jews were being crammed into. Once we were in the lift we were then made to watch a propaganda movie to distract us, while the lift either moved upwards to a few more days of freedom or down to a dreaded gas chamber.

While waiting anxiously, the propaganda film came to an end and the lift doors began to open. Thankfully the lift had gone up to ‘freedom’, we all scuttled out like rats in a sewer, but the worst was not over. We followed the damp corridor down towards the exit, when from the distance I noticed that the next section, which was similar to airport security where the Nazi’s required a barcode which was imbedded into the skin of Jews.

I looked down at my arms, searching for a barcode. I couldn’t find one, I began to panic thinking that I would never escape back out into the real world without one. I  looked around to see if anyone could help me to get a barcode, failing that I began to run searching for an alternate exit…and that’s when I realised I was beginning to be chased by Nazi’s with guns trying to shoot me.

In that moment I then realised that I was in a dream…but I couldn’t wake myself up and bring myself out of it. I began to think to myself, what if i get shot right now? What if I die and can’t return back to reality. What if my body goes into some sort of coma due to my mind being killed in my imagination? Is that even possible?

All I know is that dreams are weird, and when they get weird my thought process gets weird… nevertheless I still enjoy dreaming…

The fault in love…

After putting it off for quite some time, I finally saw ‘The Fault In Our Stars’. When this book first became big, like many others I went out and bought a copy of my own. Having heard parts of it from other people who had read it, I understood that it was about a young girl who had cancer and fell in love. However I never actually got round to reading it for myself (yet), seen as I am so caught up with the books by Mitch Albom. So instead I decided I would watch the film first, and then read the book later to add more detail to the story. As films always tend to miss details out…which is fair enough as there is a lot of extra detail in books to allow the reader to picture it in their own mind.

There are two main focuses in my opinion within this film. The first is the awareness of cancer in young people. For me I still don’t think people are as aware of this as they could be. Now I know that when a cancer case regarding a child enters the news, there is normally a lot of detailed coverage regarding it to ensure people know as much as possible about the surrounding factors. However I still think there is a lot more we could know about it. For example the signs and symptoms of childhood cancer, or even just knowledge of support groups for young people with cancer or for family and friends with cancer. None of this which I personally knew. I don’t think anyone really expects there to be anything wrong with someone who is so young, not just regarding cancer but any type of illness, and I think that’s the main concern. We don’t expect the unexpected, therefore it completely throws us off when it happens. I think the writer John Green and the director Josh Boone did an amazing job at trying to put in as much detail as possible, about the different types of cancer included in the film.

The second focus is of course the love that is shared between Hazel and Gus. I think this was amazing and touching to watch. The actors did an unbelievable job in this film. Making not only their love for each other, but their pain with the cancer so believable. Meaning the two just contrasted so much more throughout the film. I think people who watched this film will always remember Shailene Woodley and Ansel Elgort in later projects for this, and commend them for it. They really show the hopes every romantic has for love. A love that is boundless, that can last for an eternity in such a little time and then go on with them for a lifetime after. I think this will affect the romantics of this generation, in the same way Titanic did for my generation.

Overall an amazing film in my eyes and I’m sure the book will make it that much better with the added detail!

“I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once.” – John Green, The Fault in Our Stars.