The sad truth…

*There’s a lot of people in this world who choose to only go skin deep*

I don’t have a lot of friends, as sad as that may sound. The ones I do have, have lives and I get that. But when you step back and realise that no one really knows you…you’ve got to admit that’s a bit sad aha. On the outside I’m a happy character. Working with customers you seem to build up a wall, a character to some extent…after all who wants to buy anything from someone who looks like they don’t want to be there. But I’m so tired of it. I know I’m selfish to some extent, I’ll ask someone how they are and if they say they’re fine…I’ll probably just reply good. But it sucks. In this society it’s as if we’re all on auto pilot, when really it’s the people in this world that makes it worth living, if you just take time to pay attention.

“So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. This is because they’re chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.”

Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie

What’s changed?

So it feels like we’ve only just started  2016, and we’re already into June! JUNE!! What’s going on?? I swear the days go faster as you get older (yes I’m only 22)…anyway this blog is basically a catch up on what’s new and what’s changed with me since we hit 1/1/16.

Okay so let’s get the boring stuff out of the way. Health wise…I’ve put on weight 👎🏼 I’m drinking more water which is good. But I’m also eating a lot more. I get bored! When I’m bored I eat. Or that could just be a excuse…I do love food. Also sadly I don’t want to ‘work out’, I have no need, no desire. But thankfully I am trying to embrace my more flabby current body, as in reality this is probably the best it’s going to look during my life…unless I start going to the gym of course.

Next on the agenda is Education. I mentioned in a different blog that I’d done a photography course with Shaw academy. I really enjoyed this and went on to do two other courses, which were good…but now I don’t know what to do with myself. I don’t see the point in doing anymore courses until I decide which direction I want to go in. I really need to make a choice about what I’m doing with my life, but right now I guess my minds on other things.

One thing I know I’m doing right is travelling. I’m trying to travel as much as I can this year while working alongside. When I’m here I just feel lost, as if I have no purpose. Everything just seems so mundane and boring. I seem to have twitchy feet as they say. I just need to get out and get moving as much as possible right now. It’s awkward in a sense…

The final thing to really cover in this is relationships I guess. I realised the other day that I’ve been single for just over a year now. In some ways it’s great, no one depending on me. Time to myself whenever I want etc etc. But at the same time I really need to get out there a bit. I feel like I’m becoming a social recluse which I hate! So I’ve started dating. Ahh it’s just confusing to be completely honest…but at least I’m trying. 😬

Innovation over Creativity

“Creativity is thinking up new things. Innovation is doing new things.”

— Theodore Levitt

In my opinion I think I’m quite creative. I’m creative in the sense I can make things, write things and maybe even see things others wouldn’t. However what I do lack majority of the time is Innovation. You see, I may notice opportunities where creativity is needed but then I fail to act upon them. So to state the obvious it holds me back…quite a lot.

I’m still trying to work on my new years resolutions and one of them was to improve myself. I’ve always thought that the first step to improvement was noticing the issues and this is one of them. Soooooo now I just need to work on it.  In the next few months I hope to start my own YouTube channel, I already have the layout for it and also some video ideas. But there’s one thing stopping me. What to upload for my first video?

I had a couple of ideas, one of them being a thirty-second video of me pretending to do a tutorial of how to eat a starburst with a funny accent, but then my mind starts thinking. What will people think? This will be their first impression of me, and I don’t want to mess up already. Ahh the issues of having a woman brain.

Overall I just want to start doing things, not just dreaming of them. So I think I’m just going to set a deadline to upload the first video and go from there. If all else fails the first videos that go up will be vlogs from my second trip to Iceland. I’ll just have to see how it goes…fingers crossed.