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My First Love…

What can I say? It was new, exciting, warming, crazy, fun, exhausting, upsetting, even heartbreaking, but it was unforgettable…like all first love’s should be I guess…but after it all I wouldn’t have had it any other way.

I will say one other thing though. It taught me a lot, but the most important lesson it taught me is that we go through life finding different types of love. The truth is you’ll never feel the same way with anyone else. Each relationship is unique, which makes that love unique. A bond that is unbreakable in a sense.

30 Random Facts About Me

  1. My middle name is Jane.
  2. I’m 22.
  3. I have 4 pets; one cat, one guinea pig, and two gerbils.
  4. I studied Performance for Stage and Screen at University.
  5. I’ve worked in cafe’s since I was 16…Starbucks was one of them.
  6. I drive a Vauxhall Corsa.
  7. I lived in Sheffield for 2 years.
  8. I’m an attempting photographer.
  9. I’d like to move to Iceland when I’m older.
  10. I’d like to travel around America one day.
  11. I’d love to have a monkey as a pet.
  12. I’ve read into dream meanings before.
  13. If I went back to university, I’d either study Psychology or English Literature.
  14. Leonardo DiCaprio was and still is my dream guy.
  15. My alcoholic beverage of choice is tequila and orange juice.
  16. I can eat a whole tub of Ice cream in one sitting.
  17. My favourite fashion item at the minute is my new Brogues.
  18. I hate shopping for boots…only because I can never find one’s I really love.
  19. I only tried watermelon a couple of months ago, and I LOVE it.
  20. The whole ghosts/demons thing interests me, however I do think it can be dangerous to get involved.
  21. I struggle with Eczema, and used to struggle with the spelling of Eczema.
  22. I’m easily distracted, especially at work.
  23. My favourite author is Mitch Albom, although I am warming to John Green.
  24. My favourite Youtuber is Gabriella Lindley aka VelvetGhost.
  25. I’d like to learn more about graphic design.
  26. I’ve never lived without an animal in my family home.
  27. I believe I have what people call a ‘resting bitch face’.
  28. I don’t understand people’s disgust with the word…mind my language… ‘cunt’. To me it’s a word.
  29. I still listen to Busted…
  30. One of my favourite past times is waiting for everyone to leave my house, putting on my iPod and singing at the top of my voice.

Lost.

Honestly…right now I feel lost.

Lost with myself, lost with where I’m going in life, lost in general. And in my personal experience when people feel lost, they begin to search for someone who can make them feel safe, feel found in a sense. Even a sense of security. Now in truth in the past I’ve known people do this, and I’ve often thought about doing this myself due to how magical love appears to be. But I think a different approach would be more suited to me right now, and this is also something many people suggest. Find yourself. Be happy with yourself.

With this I don’t necessarily mean be alone until I feel found (if that’s even a thing), because friends and family are always important. I mainly just mean I am not going to jump into a relationship, because in a relationship you have to think of both people and right now I need to be a little bit selfish. Plus saying that if you can’t be selfish right now then when can you? Because as the years go by there becomes a pressure to get into a relationship and make plans with that person. Starting from where to go on holiday together, to getting married and having kids. And that all means being completely considerate and that’s just not for me right now.

My main focuses are really to just find out more things about myself, stuff that I’ve never discovered. New passions, new skills, even new desires. Maybe I will also lose some bad habits I’ve acquired through other people, which wouldn’t be a bad thing. Alongside all of this though I will still be living in the real world and will aim to get another job so I can get money together to go travelling to all the places I’ve dreamed of. So now is the time. Time to leap and see what happens. Wish me luck.

“No matter what you’re trying, even if you fail in the beginning and people say you’re no good, don’t listen to them; Just listen to your own heart.” – Mitch Albom