Oblivious…

It seems to me that I’ve become a bit oblivious to the world around me lately. I walk around on auto pilot too much, which could be a result of being depressed over the years…or it could be because most of the time I’d prefer to be invisible and therefore I don’t take notice in the hope I don’t get noticed myself. As if over the years I’ve slowly  been backing myself out of society, excusing myself to be ignorant.

But by doing this it appears I’ve been also letting the wrong people in and shutting the best ones off to some extent. So this needs to stop. If anything this blog is basically a reminder to myself. To open your eyes! Don’t go through life without living, without knowing or taking notice. Have more interactions with people, even if it isn’t verbal. Because sometimes its the non verbal communications that can mean the most. Even show a spark between two people.

I feel like I have to remind myself a lot of this…but it’s the only way I know how to work it into my head. I think sometimes I just get lost in a sea of social media. I find myself scrolling through Facebook pointlessly for about an hour, before realising that times now gone. So I think I just need to take a step back from that a bit. Focus more on blogging and photography and just exploring and living really.

Ok. Good chat.

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Amateur Photographer…

I’ve loved photography for as long as I can remember. Mainly taking photo’s of landscapes…or animals. Catching the light in a certain way so that a flare appears on the lens. Catching the excitement on a dogs face; as he waits patiently for a treat. Or even just capturing a moment, that can be saved for a lifetime. The camera, in my opinion, is one if not the best invention so far. The power it has in such a small body is incredible. The ability to share a moment all over the world, over generations, that occurred in just one second to never be repeated again.

Over the last  few months I’ve been attempting to improve my photography skills,  but I could never find the right method to learn. I tried reading about it, but it never sunk in. I even tried looking at online video’s, and although I understood some parts…there were other areas where i needed extra help that I couldn’t find through videos. Then as I was searching Groupon one day for a cheap getaway, I came across a online course by Shaw Academy called ‘Diploma in Photography’. The aim of the course was to teach me how to get out of automatic mode, while learning about the important of shutter speed, aperture and exposure.

So I enrolled online and in February I attended a live online course on Mondays and Wednesdays 7-8pm. It was amazing! I’m finally able to use my camera to it’s full ability, and now I can say I have a diploma in photography. I’m so happy! I still class myself as an amateur though, as I don’t exactly have the portfolio to go with my diploma…but I’m getting there. With a few more trips away I’m sure I’ll be there in no time!

If you’d like to see any of my photo’s I’ll leave some links below. 🙂

https://www.instagram.com/njo_photography/

www.facebook.com/NJOramPhotography

Small Changes…

Although I said I wouldn’t be creating a list of new years resolutions, there is a couple of small things I’d like to try to do this year. I won’t class them as resolutions as they will just be on going improvements. Anyway here goes…

  1. Wear heels more – as a small girl I will always need more height, and what better way to solve this than with fancy shoes or boots! Also they of course add to the sex appeal…not.
  2. Not be on my phone as much – in today’s world we as a whole are anti social or ‘zombie-like’ if you will. So I think this is a good way to begin reconnecting with the world again.
  3. Go out more – I’ve never really been a drinker, but I’ve come to the realisation that I’m only young once. Also as the years go on my body won’t react as well with alcohol as it does when your younger…or so I’ve heard.
  4. Sing – I love to sing! Let it be known not very well, but what’s that to stop me. Confidence can pull off anything. Well almost everything.
  5. Save money! – Travelling isn’t cheap, and seen as it’s one of the things I want to do this year…I really need to save money.
  6. Try and find the perfect foundation – this is a constant battle. I hate spending money on something that never matches. They either dry my face out or turn me into a Oompa Loompa and that’s just not a good look!
  7. Use my camera more! – I love taking photos, I even took the time to set up a Facebook page for it…but I just don’t take enough photos. So from now on I’m going to just go on random walks every so often, plus it means I get to see the hidden areas of lovely Yorkshire!
  8. Listen to more music – I like a bit of everything when it comes to music, but it’s quite rare I just put my iPod on anymore. To add to this I’m also going to try to keep up to date with new music because I always seem to be a hundred years behind everyone else and never know new bands names.
  9. Let go – I try not to do this a lot but there just certain things I can’t seem to let go of, so its time. As Elsa says “let it go”
  10. Don’t over think! – This is just a constant battle as a girl. For some reason we all just seem to have a tendency to think way to far into everything so this year, I’m going to aim to just roll with everything and not think as much…we’ll see how that pans out.

LETS DO IT!

Improvements…

There’s a lot of things I aim to improve on…and I could palm you off on a less personal one like my photography skills but I’m being honest and open this month. One of the things I’m focusing on improving right now is myself.  A blog I wrote this month was about three lessons I’d like to teach my children…but for me to teach anything to anyone else, I have to be a better/more together person myself.

The main improvements always seem to lead back to one thing – finding myself. They say you can’t be truly happy until your happy alone. So I’m trying that. I’m alone…but I’m still lost. I think the problem is that I’m too alone. I open myself up to new people in some ways, but I never fully submerge myself. In a way I think that would help me. In a previous blog I’ve also mentioned about how complete strangers can help you find the right path you belong on, after being pushed around by the wind first. I think that’s what I need to try. So this is the first step to submerging myself to change for the better, and making a few personal improvements….so here’s to submerging and hoping to not drown…

30 Random Facts About Me

  1. My middle name is Jane.
  2. I’m 22.
  3. I have 4 pets; one cat, one guinea pig, and two gerbils.
  4. I studied Performance for Stage and Screen at University.
  5. I’ve worked in cafe’s since I was 16…Starbucks was one of them.
  6. I drive a Vauxhall Corsa.
  7. I lived in Sheffield for 2 years.
  8. I’m an attempting photographer.
  9. I’d like to move to Iceland when I’m older.
  10. I’d like to travel around America one day.
  11. I’d love to have a monkey as a pet.
  12. I’ve read into dream meanings before.
  13. If I went back to university, I’d either study Psychology or English Literature.
  14. Leonardo DiCaprio was and still is my dream guy.
  15. My alcoholic beverage of choice is tequila and orange juice.
  16. I can eat a whole tub of Ice cream in one sitting.
  17. My favourite fashion item at the minute is my new Brogues.
  18. I hate shopping for boots…only because I can never find one’s I really love.
  19. I only tried watermelon a couple of months ago, and I LOVE it.
  20. The whole ghosts/demons thing interests me, however I do think it can be dangerous to get involved.
  21. I struggle with Eczema, and used to struggle with the spelling of Eczema.
  22. I’m easily distracted, especially at work.
  23. My favourite author is Mitch Albom, although I am warming to John Green.
  24. My favourite Youtuber is Gabriella Lindley aka VelvetGhost.
  25. I’d like to learn more about graphic design.
  26. I’ve never lived without an animal in my family home.
  27. I believe I have what people call a ‘resting bitch face’.
  28. I don’t understand people’s disgust with the word…mind my language… ‘cunt’. To me it’s a word.
  29. I still listen to Busted…
  30. One of my favourite past times is waiting for everyone to leave my house, putting on my iPod and singing at the top of my voice.

10 things that make me happy!

  1. Food. I love food, even when I’m down it can make me happy. Especially chocolate cake…with cream…and marshmallows. Yeaahhh. 
  2. Films. I have a huge obsession with films. All variety’s, even the occasional documentaries. I like films with information in too, so I can learn new things as I’m being entertained. So films about the war, or even the stock market interest me.
  3. Emoji’s. I’m an apple user, and one of the biggest upsides of that is the built-in emojis. I love them! I use them in most messages, to cheer people up or even to be cheered up. My favourite one at the minute has to be the skull 💀. Just because sometimes I have no response, or I like to show that I’m done with the conversation.
  4. Facetime. Linking to the previous ‘apple praise’, facetime is also a built in app I love. Sometimes just a phone call isn’t enough, and I like the feeling of hanging out with someone without being physically present. Especially when your either ill or just down.
  5. Coffee. This is a relatively new thing that makes me happy. Because although I’ve worked with coffee since I was 16 I never really drunk it. However recently I’ve been drinking it more, and it gives me a nice boost to start my day.
  6. Photography. I’ve always liked doing this, but recently I’ve begun to attempt making it more professional, I’m just starting out but for the minute it’s making me happy. So I’ll see where that ends up. Here’s a link to the Facebook page if your interested. www.facebook.com/NJOramPhotography
  7. Travelling. Although I have plans to travel, right now I’m only talking about Iceland. I’ve been to Iceland twice now and each time I fall in love. The atmosphere, the environment, the people, everything. In the future I genuinely think I’d move there.
  8. Driving. I know I’ve only been driving for a few months, but if i ever feel like i need to get out…my car is always there. Ready and waiting to take me as far as my petrol tank will allow it. It’s a permanent escape route.
  9. My guinea pig. I have a few animals in my house, but the one that makes me happy most right now is my guinea pig. I mean I love my cat to pieces but…I doubt he feels the same. But with George I can get him out and all he’ll want to do is cuddle. Which is perfect when you have a anti-social cat…
  10. Mitch Albom. I know I talk about his work a lot on my blog, and also throw in his quotes but the books he writes are just…brilliant. In a way he clears my mind, and I can’t wait to start the next one. My only question is who do I move onto after I’ve read them all.

Moving Onwards and Upwards

For a few months now I’ve been waiting for something to happen at work…a promotion. But in life, we don’t always get what we think we are going to get. In a way I’m angry about that. Not because I lost out on the opportunity, but because it held me back from doing other things that would have made me happier. By now if I had left this job when I had the chance, I could have probably already saved up some money I needed to go travelling. Which of course is annoying. Never the less, eventually we always end up on the road we belong on…That road for me is travelling, and creating.

In a way I’m glad this happened, because after all everything is a learning experience. I have more skills now then what I did. I had more time to think things over in terms of where I want to go. I also had more time to realise that I have other options that I didn’t even know existed. So there are ups and downs to the situation I’ve found myself in.

Anyway to kickstart my ‘new lease of life’ as I’m calling it. I have decided I am opening up my own horizons; and the first step of this is by claiming I am a photographer. Just to say I am being truthful when doing so…I know I said claiming but that’s just because I know I’m nowhere near as professional as those who are actual photographers. I’ve set up a new instagram page soley for this purpose, and also a Facebook page so I will leave links if anyone’s interested. That’s all for now 🙂 I just needed a little rant and a boost.

P.S I used to be just a man…now I am a man with a plan!

P.P.S (Just for clarification I am in fact a woman) 🙂

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