What if…

Okay so I was hesitant to do this post because lately only one thing of ‘what if’ has been on my mind. And this ‘what if’ includes my ex.

Today would have marked one year that me and my ex had been going out. So It’s funny how this is the day for this particular topic. What’s also strange is that my Mac decided to remind me that it would have been one year today…not sure how that happened because I don’t remember setting a reminder. Oh and to top it off a guy who was the spitting image of my ex came into my place of work yesterday, strange the coincidence but whatever.

So what if? What if I hadn’t broken up with him due to me not feeling like he didn’t trust me? What if that was the one and only person to ever truly love everything about me and I kicked them out of my life? What If we had stayed together, then moved in together and even had a ‘happily ever after’. It’s a difficult one. Firstly because in his opinion he hadn’t done anything and therefore nothing had to be fixed. And secondly because I was lost. I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life and for me I had to figure that out before I could be happy in any way with anyone…to which I’m still quite unsure.

But it doesn’t stop you wondering what if? What if things had worked out differently and he still wanted me in his life in someway. There’s always questions left unanswered…that’s life.

So what if? That’s it. A question. Left unanswered.

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Liebster Award!

Nomination…

I was nominated by the amazing Daniella, from https://makeupyourmindx.wordpress.com. Thank you for the nomination! I’ve been reading blogs about this, but never thought I’d get nominated. You have a great blog, that’s worth everyone checking out! Also I apologise for not using the questions you provided I made a whoopsie and didn’t read past the questions you answered on your blog until after I wrote this (secret facepalm).

So what is the Liebster Award?

The Liebster Award is basically an award you get nominated for by a fellow blogger, if you have under 200 followers. You then answer 11 questions provided by that blogger, and then nominate 5-11 other bloggers providing them with another 11 questions of your choice. From my understanding the aim is to spread the word about bloggers you follow, and suggest them to other people. Overall creating a type of promotion for a number of bloggers to allow them to get more followers, or to just get their writing noticed more. I personally think this is a great way to build up a community and whoever created it is a genius in the blogosphere.

My Questions

1. Why did you start blogging? I started blogging for a number of reasons. Firstly I’ve always liked writing and sharing random thoughts, and through blogging you can also generate good feedback in relation to these thoughts. Secondly I finished University, and through university you do a lot of essays, so once that I finished I had a bit of a gap in my life (plus i think one of the best noises in the world is the sound of a keyboard  being used). Finally I have an aspiration to start a YouTube channel and I think in some ways this could be a good platform to launch that a bit.

2. What is your favourite beauty product? My favourite at the moment is the CC Cream by ‘GOSH’ in 02 Ivory, I just think it makes my face feel so soft and look amazing! Especially when my eczema gets bad, it really helps the red patches appear ‘normal’.

3. Do you have any siblings? Yes I have an older sister called Charlotte who is 25, and she is amazing!

4. Most embarrassing moment of your life? I have too many to list, I think overall I am just a very clumsy person and in some ways a bit socially awkward which of course does me no favours.

5. What are three words you would use to describe yourself? Small, observant and polite.

6. Do you have any pets? I personally have a cat, and two gerbils. However the total number of animals at my house including those 3 is 7 (I counted the tropical fish as 1 pet).

7. What is your favorite season and why? Summer. The days seem long. The nights seem long. There’s nicer clothing to be worn. Overall more opportunities for different activities.

8. Favorite article of clothing? I don’t really have a favourite. You can’t go wrong with checked shirt during the day, and a nice chiffon dress at night (if you are going somewhere).

9. What is a hobby of yours? Taking pictures. I wouldn’t class myself as a photographer because I don’t think I’m anywhere near as skilled as I should be, but it is something I really enjoy. Take a look at my Instagram 😉

10. Name one thing you can’t live without? Air? (I know I’m SO funny!)

11. Favorite food? Chicken, pizza, ice cream, corn on the cob, cake, pulled pork, chips, chilli…. My name is Natalie…and I’m a foodaholic

Questions to my nominees:

  1. Why did you start a blog?
  2. Do you have any siblings?
  3. What’s your one main goal in life?
  4. Do you have any pets?
  5. What are your hobbies?
  6. If you could travel anywhere where would it be and why?
  7. Best beauty product?
  8. What is your favorite film?
  9. If you could invite anyone in the world (dead or alive) to dinner who would it be and why?
  10. What 3 things must you carry in your bag at all times?
  11. What is your favourite quote?

Plans for 2015

So 2015 has begun, and a number of questions will have entered people’s minds when the hangover had passed on new years… What will be different this year? What do I want to achieve? How can I be better? I thought about this, and have decided to devise a list of my own plans or even hopes for this year.

1. Pass my driving test – This is quite a big plan, and has been in my mind for a while. But now my test is in sight…I just hope I’ll pass first time.

2. Buy a car – This is really only if number one goes to plan. Can’t say I haven’t already started looking though in excitement though.

3. Travel More – I’ve mentioned this in a few of my other posts saying I want to travel, and explore the world. So this year I’m going to attempt to go somewhere new every month, even if it’s just for a couple of days.

4. Get Fitter – This is probably on a lot of people’s lists every year (mine included) but this year I’m really going to push myself. Running, circuit training, cycling, yoga, anything going really…maybe even a tough mudder.

5.Blog more – Write about anything and everything. Try not to focus only on topics I have a lot to say about, but also just everyday thoughts. So be prepared for some strange posts.

6. Try my hand at short films – I have a few ideas already scribbled down for short films, so this year I will attempt to put these online if possible.

7. Buy a better camera! – I love taking pictures, mainly of landscapes and sunsets as anyone could tell from my Instagram. But this year I’d like to try a professional side of it, and to do that I need a better and more expensive camera. This of course would also be helpful while creating short films, so that’s definitely a must have.

8. Possibly start a business – This may be an aspiration too far, but I guess it will be a trial and error process. I plan to be more creative and because I love quotes so much I thought I’d try combine the two in some way. We will have to see though.

9.Be a better person – Last year I don’t think I personally tried as hard as I could have to be a good person. So this year I plan to try harder to see and speak to people I rarely see, to be kinder if people require help even if they don’t ask, and to just overall be more appreciative of the friends and family I have around me.

10. Find my way – This is the biggest one this year. I really don’t know what I want to do in life career wise. So I’m going to try everything that takes my interest. I won’t be following any specific paths…more taking opportunities that appear. Letting the wind blow me in any direction in other words. And I can honestly say that I’m excited for that. Trying new things, even revisiting past career options. Saying that…I know I may not find it this year, but I’ll try keep up hope.

That’s my main plans anyway, as well as just living life a bit better and more fuller. Maybe I’ll look over this post in a years time and see what I actually accomplished…

If you live long enough, you’ll make mistakes. But if you learn from them, you’ll be a better person. It’s how you handle adversity, not how it affects you. The main thing is never quit, never quit, never quit. – William J. Clinton