🌟Too Old for Advents?🌟

Christmas comes and goes each year. And each year as soon as December hits, the chocolate advent calendar’s come out and get eaten by people of all ages everywhere. I am one of these people…But the statement I keep hearing is “aren’t you too old for an advent calendar”. For this I have a simple answer.

No one is too old for chocolate! No matter what form it comes in.

Christmas is a time of joy, peace and happiness, so if getting fat makes me happy…I’m going to do it. Everyday! For December at least…

‘The Woman in Black’ and other drama

I love theatre. I have done since I was young. Every year at christmas we’d go to the theatre, to see a pantomime…and every year I’d fall more and more in love. It wasn’t just the idea of going to the theatre, it was everything. The atmosphere, the architecture, the people, the characters, the story being told, and from the actors side the way you could be someone completely different to yourself as soon as you set foot on stage.

When I was eleven I approached my mum outside in the front garden and announced proudly “I know what I want to be when I grow up…I want to be an actor on stage”. At the time this didn’t seem like a big thing, but as I look back on it this is the only thing I’ve ever said I really want to do career wise. Which is strange because I’ve never been career driven, but this I seemed sure about. As soon as my mum heard this she was thrilled. She’s always loved theatre too, so I think the main excitement came from the fact we had something massive in common; as I’d always been a daddies girl until then.

The first thing she did was search for me to join an amateur dramatics club, and lucky for me my next door neighbour had a friend that was involved in one close by. This was the start of my ‘career’ as an actor. From this I went onto taking part in 7 amazing shows, including both pantomimes and musicals (to which I was a Dalek in one…random but best time of my life). As I got older it became clearer that I was out growing the drama group, however by this time I had begun taking my GCSE’s and of course Drama was one of my choices. I love drama at GCSE! It taught me so much about the different types of drama and opened me up to new genres which I thought were so much better than pantomimes, for example Shakespeare. As my knowledge in drama increased so did my love for it, and by the time I reached A-Levels and was able to devise my own play (with the help of a group) and I was certain that this was the type of thing I wanted to do at University…

Anyway during my GCSE’s there was the chance to go on a school trip to see ‘The Woman in Black’ at the Lyceum Theatre in Sheffield (just as a side note this was before the film came out and made it a massive thing). I signed up and off we went. I arrived with an open mind not knowing what to expect really, as the teachers hadn’t given me a brief as to what the play would be about but Oh. My. God. It was incredible!!! This performance was the one and only time I’ve ever seen a horror being brought to stage with such perfection and atmosphere! The fear being built up throughout the play was amazing. One by one you could see the audience being dragged into the fear of the woman in black. The way that she shocked each and every one of us as she floated through the audience in an eerie manner.

I have to say with a cast of only two people (three if you count the woman in black), a minimal set and a mimed dog it is by far the best performance I have ever seen, and I dare say I will ever see. It just captured in me in such a way that my heart will never be set free from the theatre. This was definitely a turning point for me and my love for theatre. Sadly since then I have lost my way with the whole acting thing but this will always be something that I feel strongly about…and If I ever do feel like going back into acting I always have an agency’s number in my phonebook…

Ryan Gosling once told me…

Okay so he didn’t literally tell me this…he rather said it through his character on the film The Notebook…but it still applies!!! He said,

“You can’t live your life for other people. You’ve got to do what’s right for you, even if it hurts some people you love.”

This is something I think a lot of people need to hear. As humans we spend a lot of time not enjoying life as we are trying to please other people around us. Maybe that’s by doing a job you don’t love, living somewhere you don’t love, or the worst one being with someone you don’t love. No matter what the situation, it can apply. For me this is travelling, as I’ve said over and over again. I could get a better job, be on more money, eventually move out, get a better car, and overall a better life. But right now…that isn’t for me (as silly as that sounds).

I want to get out into the world and explore every inch of it, or at least as much as I can. I need to do that for me. I need to experience it. I need to be free…at least for a while. Sometimes we get a little too wrapped up in what we are ‘supposed‘ to do, and not what we ‘want‘ to do. So my aim with this post is to attempt to encourage anyone reading to do what’s right for you! You have your whole life to please other people, but right now “do you, for you”.

Becoming Girly…

When I was younger I always thought I was classed as ‘girly’…however when I reached the world of ‘womanhood’ I realised just how wrong I was. The world just seemed so much easier as a little girl, but now… ugh. There’s make up, waxing, plucking, dressing up, attitude, presentation and don’t even get me started on the whole body changing period issue.

Some women just seem take it all in naturally, but for some of us we struggle instead. We don’t know how to do some of the stuff we are supposed to; and you can YouTube it or even research it all you like, and still be none the wiser. But you see the thing is, once you hit a certain age the problem isn’t how to be ‘girly’ it’s more how to be sexy…and that is a whole new obstacle.

Basically this is just an update of where I am now…in my mind. Pretty pointless really but I guess we all go through it at some stage…my stage begins now.

 

“It always seems impossible until it’s done” – Nelson Mandela

 

Eczema VS Sun-beds

So I’ve suffered from eczema since I was born. As I got older it seemed to of got more and more controllable, to the point where it was just seasonal and only really became visible in winter due to the sudden change of climate. However this year it doesn’t seem to be going away, and nothing seems to be helping clear it up.

Winter has come and gone and by March my skin would usually of gone back to its normal self. But for some reason this year it just won’t budge. I feel like I’ve tried everything. Different moistursers, steroid creams, bath ointments, and many more treatments. So like with any question I can’t answer, I took to the internet. There was suggestion, after suggestion but the one that caught my eye was to try using a sun-bed.

Now I know the risks of using a sun-bed…but due to my eczema mainly being due to the climate, and me feeling like I’m out of options I thought I should give it a go. So far I’ve only had 4 sessions, each of 6 minutes. But I honestly think it is beginning to help. My skin feels better and definitely looks better with the red patches disappearing, giving me a bit more self-confidence (because let’s be honest having people stare at you, and wonder why you look like a human leopard isn’t exactly a confidence booster). I mean I’m in no way getting a ‘great’ tan from this as I still look quite pale, but as long as my eczema is getting better I don’t mind.

Just as a side note this isn’t a long-term treatment at all and as soon as I feel happy that majority of it has cleared up, I will stop using the sun-beds. Anyway I’ll keep you updated, feel free to give me any feedback or even any suggestions if you or anyone you know struggles with eczema and what they use to clear it up.

 “People will stare . Make it worth their while” – Harry Winston.

Foundation…

Now normally I love shopping. However one thing I actually hate to buy is… foundation. There’s just so many choices, all for different skins types, in a mass variety of shades and colours, and majority of them costing quite a bit to a girl who can only get part time jobs (not through choice).

Now I think a lot of guys reading this could believe there’s a simple solution to this problem. Just don’t buy it! But there’s so many reasons why we feel we must. For example to make ourselves feel better. I mean most days majority of women can’t just roll out of bed and look ‘hot as hell’. For some of us it takes a little bit more than that.

Anyway getting back into what I was talking about, the whole process of finding a brand new foundation after deciding you fancy a change from your ‘normal’ foundation is just all in all stressful. Yes you can do research before going to the shops, because after all the internet is packed full of blog reviews, vlog reviews and even just shop reviews. But that just isn’t enough! Reading a review online and having the product at hand are two completely different things. I mean I do the swab test (on the back of my hand) and sometimes even that’s not helpful. It’s as if the product changes from the time you put it on the back of your hand, go to purchase it, and then get it home! Before you know it that’s £9 you’ve wasted on a product you hate.

Am I the only on who has this thought process? Is there no solution to this nightmare….or am I just being a massive girl?

Ughhh! *exhales* Rant over!

The fault in love…

After putting it off for quite some time, I finally saw ‘The Fault In Our Stars’. When this book first became big, like many others I went out and bought a copy of my own. Having heard parts of it from other people who had read it, I understood that it was about a young girl who had cancer and fell in love. However I never actually got round to reading it for myself (yet), seen as I am so caught up with the books by Mitch Albom. So instead I decided I would watch the film first, and then read the book later to add more detail to the story. As films always tend to miss details out…which is fair enough as there is a lot of extra detail in books to allow the reader to picture it in their own mind.

There are two main focuses in my opinion within this film. The first is the awareness of cancer in young people. For me I still don’t think people are as aware of this as they could be. Now I know that when a cancer case regarding a child enters the news, there is normally a lot of detailed coverage regarding it to ensure people know as much as possible about the surrounding factors. However I still think there is a lot more we could know about it. For example the signs and symptoms of childhood cancer, or even just knowledge of support groups for young people with cancer or for family and friends with cancer. None of this which I personally knew. I don’t think anyone really expects there to be anything wrong with someone who is so young, not just regarding cancer but any type of illness, and I think that’s the main concern. We don’t expect the unexpected, therefore it completely throws us off when it happens. I think the writer John Green and the director Josh Boone did an amazing job at trying to put in as much detail as possible, about the different types of cancer included in the film.

The second focus is of course the love that is shared between Hazel and Gus. I think this was amazing and touching to watch. The actors did an unbelievable job in this film. Making not only their love for each other, but their pain with the cancer so believable. Meaning the two just contrasted so much more throughout the film. I think people who watched this film will always remember Shailene Woodley and Ansel Elgort in later projects for this, and commend them for it. They really show the hopes every romantic has for love. A love that is boundless, that can last for an eternity in such a little time and then go on with them for a lifetime after. I think this will affect the romantics of this generation, in the same way Titanic did for my generation.

Overall an amazing film in my eyes and I’m sure the book will make it that much better with the added detail!

“I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once.” – John Green, The Fault in Our Stars.